Promise Me Chapter 11 - Letting Go (Wmatsui)

Chapter 11 - Letting Go

Jurina Pov

Time will heal the pain. Is that true? If is it, why the past 7 years have never once I felt relieve? The pain in me never once fade?

Now I’m standing here with my suitcase but something pull me back. Maybe it just my illusion. I step on the plane, even I cover my face now I can’t hide my pain. The truth is I am a liar, even I say I’m okay, I’m not. 

“Welcome on board Flight AK480 to New york. Our aircraft is under the command of Captain David. He has informed me that our flying time will be approximately 13 hours.”

I just wish one phone call, one message from you. I know this is impossible………

“Ladies and gentlemen, the Captain has turned on the Fasten Seat Belt sign.” 

I put on my seat belt. I’m ready to let go, right?

“At this time, we request that all mobile phones, pagers, radios and remote controlled toys be turned off for the full duration of the flight, as these items might interfere with the navigational and communication equipment on this aircraft.”
I pull out my phone and ready to switch it off, but there was an unread message. I swipe my phone screen and check the message. 

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Title: Are you sure?

To: Knightjurinaxxxx

Are you really sure you want this?
Do you really want to forget about her?

Mayu
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No. I never wanted any of this happen. Not once. Is not fair for me. But what can I do? She needed space and time to accept it. At the same time I’m in a mess. 
I send out a message before I turn it off. 

“Rena, You will be the only one that I will ever love.” I whisper.

For now just let me fake a smile, lie and saying I’m better then ever……… 

Rena Pov.

I been crying non stop alone in the music class room. Music class room has always been empty and no one goes in. I been sitting in the room and crying my heart out. School ended, so as my tears. No tears left. Jurina is this how much you hurt me. Are you happy now? 
You played with my feelings, not once but twice. If I have known you were this kind of person I wish I never have met you at all. I will never have my heart broken for twice for the same person. Why am I so dumb? Why didn’t I notice? 

Staring blankly ahead and making my way back to my class. I glimpse over Jurina seat and it is empty. I guess she have gone home. I took my bag and walk home. 

If I have never met you, What will I be like now?

Thoughts be going a lot in my head as I walk home. Shortly, I reach my house but I notice someone in front of it. Standing and looking up to my room window. It’s Jurina. Great. I don’t want to see her anymore. Why is she here? Now I just want to go into my house. She turn around and saw me standing few step away from her.

“Rena….”

“........” I stare at her coldly.

“Ne…..”

I walk pass her and gave her a cold shoulder. Hearing her calling my name makes me sad. I ignore her. Before I go into my house I heard she say.

“I’m not here to ask for forgiveness but just want to tell you I’m really sorry and I will leave you alone now. Good bye, Rena-chan.” I swear I could her sadness in her voice and it fading as she say good bye.

I just close the door and lean on it. “Good bye uh.”

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The next day I went to school as always but the different thing is not with Jurina. I walk into the classroom and sat at my place, took out a book and read. That’s weird, something is different. Ah. Maybe I’m still not use to being quiet and alone, Jurina will always come up to me and talk. And now? I’m back to the life when I haven’t met Jurina. My peaceful life. 

School bell rang and everyone sat back it’s own place. Jurina didn’t enter class. Maybe she is skipping class. Why do I still cares about her? She is the one that break my heart twice. Rena, get over it.  

“Class, before our lesson starts I need to tell you something unfortunate .”

“What it is?” One of the girl asked.

“You guys may have not hear it from her, But Jurina has gone back to New York.”

“W-hat????? When did she go back?” Few girls said with a shocked face.

“Why didn’t she told us about it?” another classmate shouted.

“U serious teacher? How could she leave us without saying goodbye?” I saw teacher nods.

“Her flight is leaving now.” Teacher said sadly.

My face change pale after I hearing the news, I couldn’t understand. Maybe I never had once understand her. Now she is leaving. I don’t know how to react. Too much things happen. I like her, she lies, she breaks my heart and now she leaving. 

My thoughts snaps away when my phone vibrated.

Bzz….bzz…..  I swipe it and check who is the one that send message. It was Her. I quickly open the message.

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Title: Goodbye

To: Renamatsuixxxx

I’m Sorry and Thank you for loving me.

Jurina
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That’s what she means by leave me alone now and good bye. Once again she walks out of my life without telling me. 

Bzz…...bzzzz…… I swipe open the message and see. It yuki.

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Title: Did something happen?

To: Renamatsuixxxx

What happen between you and Jurina?
Mayu told me Jurina going back to New york?
Did you guys fight?
Are you okay?

Yuki
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Title: Nothing

To: Kashiwagiyukixxxx

We fought.
I just got the news too.
I’m fine. 

Rena
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I’m fine. Am I really fine? Why does my heart hurt so much? 
I don’t know anymore. What is love? Isn’t something happy? Why only I felt sadness?

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Title: You sure?

To: Renamatsuixxxx

Rena. You don’t need to act strong in front of me. 
We are friends aren’t we? 
Call me if you want to met up k? 
I’ll be around for sometime. 


Yuki
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I didn’t reply her. I don’t know what to say.

Is that alright with you? To let her go? Do you really want her to let her go once again? I ask myself.
Let’s give each other sometimes.


2 months later.

I’m getting used to the days where Jurina not by my side now. I haven’t been keeping in touch with yuki even though I know yuki is still around at Japan. I saw her google plus news, she has been busy with work a lot. I kinda miss her, Maybe I should give her a call after so long.

“Hello?” A familiar voice was heard through the phone call.

“Hey, Yuki. It me Rena.”

“Heyyy, Rena! How are you? It’s been quite some time.” Yuki said.

“Ya. It’s been quite sometime. I’m fine. How about you?”

“You know the same. Work has been increasing lately. I miss you.”

“I miss you too. Let’s meet up?”

“That’s sound great! What about tomorrow? Oh, Mayu is here in Japan too. Can she join? You remember her rite?” 

“Of course I remember your girlfriend. Who couldn’t remember when your friend keep showing off her girlfriend to you every single day during school days. Is like a nightmare. Keep telling me about what you guys did. All those lovely dovey stuff and such.” I tease her.

“Haha. I did? I couldn’t remember that~ Teehee. Anyway, Tomorrow lunch at chocolate cafe okay?” 

“Okay~ see you then. bye~”

“Bye”

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Jurina Pov.

Knock* Knock* 

“Come in.” 

“President J, This are the document that you wanted.” 

“Thank you, Churi. you know I don’t like it when you call me that.” Her name is Takayanagi Akane, She is my secretary, but I prefer to call her Churi though.

“You are welcome, Jurina.” She smiles.

“Much better. Later I will have meeting with the shared holders at 4. please write it down on my schedule.” 

“I have already did” 

“.... Did I tell you, you are too good in your job?” I sigh as defeated. 

“Well, I just want to do my best with my job. Oh, Don’t forget to sign the checks later.”

“Yes, you are doing it very good. Okay, I’ll sign it. Do I appointment at night?”

“No, You are free.”

“Then are you free tonight?”

“.... Are you asking me out?”

“Yes. I am. It’s been awhile since we had dinner together.”

“You are right. I’m free tonight.” she smile again.

“Okay. Let’s go to the ramen shop”

“Okay. For now, I still have work to do. I’ll leave first.”

“un, you may go back to work.”

After I left Japan. My life only has been work and more work. Churi is a Japanese girl that i met here during the high school days. She moved here because her mother’s work. She knew about Rena, and also my background. She can consider as one of my close friend I guess. 2 months ago, she heard I moved back here to New York. At that time, she just freshly graduated from college and she was finding for a job. I told her I needed a secretary. She immediately accept the offer I gave her. And now you could see she is my secretary and my friend.

“Hey, Working time is over.” I said as I saw her still busy with her laptop. She took her gaze off the laptop and turns to me.

“Oh. It time already?” She look at her watch. 
“Yes, Churi. Is already past 6. Now. Keep your things and get ready. You promise me to have dinner with me remember?”

“Yes. President J.” She tease me as I just glance at her.

“Mou Churi.”

“Haha. Alright. Is just so fun to tease you when your working mood is off.” I just pouted at her.

“Hurry up. I’m hungry.” I whine like a kid. 

“Hai, hai. Just a second.” She said. “Alright I’m done. Let’s go~”

“Finally. It takes forever!” I said.

“Hey, It’s only takes a few minutes.” She hit me softly.

“Ouch! you hit your boss. How could you?” 

“...... I’M SORRY. PRESIDENT J! Should I kneel down and beg for forgiveness?” She was about to kneel down, I start panicking and stop her from kneeling down.

“I-it okay. I’m hungry now. I’ll just forgive you. Let’s go now.” I turn my back and walk out of the office.

“Haha. Jurina. you never change.” she says in a low voice.

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At the ramen shop. 

New York ramen shop is run by a japanese, and the Raman is tasty too. Because of that the place is always full, luckily Churi is smart, she booked before we came. So we get to have table.

“Did you have reservation?” A waiter asked.

“Yes we did. Under the name of Matsui” Churi says.

“Please follow me.” The waiter guide us to our table. “Hope you enjoy your night.”

The place is not like Japan ramen shop where is noisy and you could hear uncle’s singing when they are drunk and such. Here is different, outside of the restaurant is shimmering with golden lights, It gives out the aura of elegance and beauty. At both the side of the entrance was piled up with stones as fences to trap the soil that were supporting the lives of those bamboo that stood high up as a part of decoration. Unlike any restaurant, there were no waiter or waitress can be seen at the entrance door. A sense of harmony and mysterious while no one was here to disturb us during our meal time, only with music accompany. We ordered our food and enjoyed. 

“It’s been awhile since I came here, nothing has change. Even the food here, is delicious as ever.” I said.

“True. It was 2 months ago I guess?” she smile as she wipe her mouth with a tissue. 

“Ya. The last time we came was we celebrated your graduation.” I smile as I remember that day we had fun.

“Good times.” She smile.

A song was played as we were chatting.

Lyin' here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
Caught up in this moment
Caught up in your smile
I've never opened up to anyone

Bitter smile slowly form on my face as I heard the song lyric.

“Still can’t forget about her?” Churi says.

“How could I?” I swear my voice cracked as I remember her.

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Rena Pov

Next day at chocolate cafe. Never thought I would see them together hand in hand and doing lovely dovely action in the public, It so bright. 

“AH! BRIGHT! TOO BRIGHT!”

“Mou~ Rena stop teasing us.” Yuki hit me softly.

“But you guys are still very lovely dovely after sooooo long. It ju-stt t-oo Bri-ght! Where is my sun glasses?” I pretend to search of it.

“Mou~ Alright, fine” Yuki let go our mayu’s hand.

“Hey,Rena.” Mayu say.

“Hey, long time so see uh. Since you moved to New york? I think.”

“I guess so, You become prettier.” 

“Hey! Don’t flirt with Rena.” Yuki hit mayu softly and pouted.

“Rena is pretty but you are gorgeous Yuki. You are the most beautiful one in my eyes okay?” Mayu said as she use her hand and caress yuki’s cheek.

“Please. Not here. If you guys continue doing that. I’m leaving.” I said. 

“Alrite, we are sorry. Is a habit.” She smirk. God. They need some help. This is too much!

“....... You better be. It bad for my eyes.”

“ Well you will understand once you are in love.” she smirks.

“.... “ I went silent as I remember Jurina.

“Opps. Sorry Rena. I didn’t mean it.” Yuki apologized to me as she noticed I became quiet.

“Hey. I didn’t mean to be rude or so. Rena, can I want to ask you a question.” Mayu asked. I just nod, as I agree to answer her.

“Do you still love Jurina?”