Chapter 14- Those Songs
Churi Pov
After I lock the door behind me, I walk toward the coffee table and put the tea down. I don’t know why but after seeing her face, I want to bust out all my feeling on her. Why? WHY Jurina pick her instead of me? Why? Why does Jurina love her more than me?
“Churi-san?” She called my name and made me turn my head toward her.
“Why did you come here? Why did you come here after hurting Jurina.” I can’t control myself anymore.
“Becau-” I cut off her words.
“Why? Aren’t you satisfy after hurting her so much? Now you want her back again. Aren’t you too selfish? Doing whatever you want?” My voice got louder each time I said.
“It’s not true…” I could hear guilty in her voice. Is not my fault when she was the one hurting Jurina much more than that. I don’t want to see Jurina get hurt again.
“Oh yea? What about the time when you rejected her when she told you she loved you? What about the time when you never listened to her explanation and rejected her again? Do you even know how much Jurina has gone through for you?” My voice got louder than before.
“You don’t understand me!” Rena suddenly raised her voice. I was stunned by her sudden outbreak but I still keep firm.
“Right! I just don’t understand. Jurina even went back to Japan to see you, you were such a disappointment. Once again, hurting her like that. It been 2 months! Even since she was back from Japan she never stopped thinking about you after you hurt her so much. Aren’t she an idiot?” I let out a laugh. Is just painful to see Jurina like this, loving someone so much which is not yours. My love will never return me.
“It’s NOT TRUE! Jurina is not an idiot!” She shouted back at me with tears rolling down along her cheek. “The idiot one is me! It’s all my fault! If only… If only I could listen to her. If only I try to understand her. I’m the total Jerk here!” She fell on ground and cried hard with her hands now all over her face.
“HA. It will be funny if she is not a fool. A fool that is madly In love with you. Do you remember the time where she went all the way back to Japan to find you and became a student there? Just to spend time with you! Even though she has graduated from high school and college, just for your sake she will do anything.”
All I got for reply was her sobbing, she just cried even harder.
“Is true that her company was doing well at that time and all her shareholders wasn’t complaining at it. But how can someone be as blunt as you? She even have to miss school sometimes due to the chaos between the shareholders. She had to fly overnight back here just to make sure everything goes well. She did everything just for you.”
“I love jurina too. My heart broke into a million pieces when she lied to me.” she said it in a low voice.
Rena Pov.
It’s painful, It’s hurts. She kept saying it in my face. But I deserved it. How can I be so insensitive about it. I noticed. Yes I knew about it. I knew that Jurina sometimes missed school. Even there was one week she didn’t attend school. But I wasn’t sensitive about it. I never dare to ask why. I’m the worst. I’m sorry, I don’t deserve to love you. I kept crying as if there is no tomorrow.
“I love her.” Churi said with a low voice but I still heard it.
I flinched a bit. She loved her. She loved her more than I do. Maybe She was the right person for you Jurina. Not me. From the start maybe it wasn’t me at all.
“But she love you. She loves you like there is no tomorrow. She Only Belongs to you. Her heart long for you. And now she went back to Japan again.”
“wh-at?” I’m confused now. Kami-sama are you playing a joke on me? Why are you doing this to us?
“Ne. Rena-san, can you tell me that you love her more than I did? Can you promise me that you will never hurt her again?” I looked into her eyes I could feel that she’s hurt. It’s hurt to love someone that doesn’t love you back. I didn’t know my selfishness can hurt everyone around us. Mayu, yuki, churi-san and lastly Jurina.
Can I kept this promise? But I loved her. I loved her more than ever. I want to be the one that protected her from hurt.
My eyes was all puffy red after I cry. I wiped my tears away, took a deep breath and stood up. “Yes. I will love her more than everyone else. I will never hurt her again.” She just let out a bitter smile.
“I hope you can keep your promise Rena-san.” She walked to the study table and took out a CD from the drawer.
“Here. Watch this. This is when Jurina still a high school student.” She handed me the CD. “I still have work to do. If you need any help just call me. Here my name card.” She turned her back on me as I could see tears flowing along her cheek from side.
“Thank you Churi-san. Thank you for loving Jurina.” I bowed to her and left the room and called Airin-san to pick me up.
“I’m sorry too.” She said in a low voice before I left the room.
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Jurina Pov
Dou* dou* dou* dou* the number you have called is not available, Please try again later….
What?
Did she changed her phone number?
She must be hated me so much that she changed her number. What should I do now? Mariko sempai, Is not that I don’t want to clean things up. But now I have no idea how to get her. Should I go to her house?
“Jurina?” I turned around and see who was calling me.
“Auntie” It was Rena’s mother. Why is she doing here?
“Jurina. It is you. It’s been awhile. How are you?”
“I’m fine Auntie. How are you?” I smiled at her.
“I’m fine. You haven’t been coming to our house for so long. Auntie misses you.” Her smile reminded me of Rena.
“Haha.Ya, I have been quite busy.” I give a bitter sad, It not that I don’t want to, it was because the relationship between Rena and I have changed.
“I heard it from Rena too. Don’t work so hard on yourself okay.” She smiled
Heard it from Rena? I wonder what Rena said to her mother about it. I’m sure she doesn’t want her mother worried about her.
“Auntie, did Rena change her number? It seem that I can’t get hold of her.” I asked.
“Change number? No. she didn’t. Oh. She went oversea with Mayu-san and Yuki-chan yesterday. Didn’t she tell you about it?”
Mayu and Yuki? They didn’t tell me about it. what’s going on?
“Ah. I must have forgotten about it. ahaha. Silly me. Auntie I have some work have to do. When I have free time I’ll go to visit you.” I smiled.
“Haha. Okay. See you later then. Be careful.” She is so kind just like Rena.
I took out my phone, swipe my phone screen and start to texting Mayu.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Title: Where is Rena?
To: W.mayuxxxx
Hey. What happen? Why is Rena at oversea?
Where is She? where are you guys???
I’m back to Japan.
Let’s meet up.
Jurina.
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Not after awhile my phone vibrated, I quickly swipe my phone screen and check.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Title: RE: Where is Rena?
To: Knightjurinaxxx
Since when are you back?
Why didn’t you tell me about it.
Let’s Meet up, at my house.
Mayu.
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After I read the message I just rush to Mayu’s house.
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Rena Pov
After I went back to Mayu’s house, I went to the living room and put the Cd into the player. I can’t wait to see what is the Cd about. I sat on the sofa and press “play” from the remote controller. The screen started showing words.
“Because of her, I learn to grow up.”
After a while, I could see the screen started to show crowds were gathered down the stage . Close and tight. But in orders, no pushing between them. As if is like a concert of a rock star. Darkness has devoured the room. The name of Jurina could be heard as the audiences were waiting for their star to come out.
Patience has started to shaken, voices of overlapping chatter was rising. It swallowed the whispering footsteps.
A spotlight appeared slowly and fixed in the middle of the stage. Inside it, there was a person. Someone they was awaiting for the whole night - Jurina. One and another spotlight shot down, wrapping bands of musical instrument and player in it. Crowds started to go wild.
That’s the Jurina they have been waiting for. She wore a torn jeans, a white shirt and with a black leather jacket. Cool and pretty at the same time. She never change, still looked the same. Jurina that everyone loved.
“Hey! How are you? Having a good night I assume? I hope you guys are!” She smiled. I miss her. “Today we going to perform 3 songs. Hope you guys enjoy it. OH. And this year will be my last year performing.” She let out a bitter smile. The crowds gone wild and loud as they heard that will be the last concert for Jurina. Some of people cried too after hearing such news. “Come on. Don’t cry. Maybe I’ll come back to sing for my Juniors.” She said it jokingly and smile.
Onion
If only you would give me a second glance
If only you could hear the shattering of my heart
Silently, I watch over you
Silently, I wait for a miracle
Silently letting myself be, just like the air
Everybody is having a good time here tonight
In the corner, I'm laughing along with the crowd
I am like the leftover onions at the bottom of the plate,
just the seasoning
Secretly, I sneak a glance at you
Secretly, I hide myself away
If you are willing to,
peel open my heart,
layer by layer by layer
You will discover, you will be surprised
You are my deepest and most suppressed secret
If you are willing to,
peel open my heart,
layer by layer by layer,
Your nose will run, your tears will flow
If you could only hear, and see my wholeheartedness
Hearing you speak of you and her, the atmosphere shifts
Me and my hopelessness, we seem very amused
I am just like an onion, forever playing the supporting character
How I wish I had a second with you, to make our own story
If only you could hear the shattering of my heart
Silently, I watch over you
Silently, I wait for a miracle
Silently letting myself be, just like the air
Everybody is having a good time here tonight
In the corner, I'm laughing along with the crowd
I am like the leftover onions at the bottom of the plate,
just the seasoning
Secretly, I sneak a glance at you
Secretly, I hide myself away
If you are willing to,
peel open my heart,
layer by layer by layer
You will discover, you will be surprised
You are my deepest and most suppressed secret
If you are willing to,
peel open my heart,
layer by layer by layer,
Your nose will run, your tears will flow
If you could only hear, and see my wholeheartedness
Hearing you speak of you and her, the atmosphere shifts
Me and my hopelessness, we seem very amused
I am just like an onion, forever playing the supporting character
How I wish I had a second with you, to make our own story
This is a Chinese Song but I translate the lyric into english.
After she finish she fix the mic. “This song is actually about myself, I’m actually like an Onion. A person that close the deepest self within me.” She smiled. “The next 2 song are call Full Moon Sways, and Notes’ N ‘Words. They are for a girl I love back in Japan.” The songs started to play and Jurina started to sing. The crowds started to reach out the hands as they felt Jurina’s broken heart along with the songs.
Full Moon Sways
Full moon sways
Gently in the night of one fine day
On my way
Looking for a moment with my dear
Full moon waves
Slowly on the surface of the lake
You are there
Smiling in my arms for all those years
What a fool
I don't know about tomorrow
What it's like to be
I was sure
Could you let myself to go
Even though I feel
The end
Oh love affair
Floating like a bird resting her wings
You are there
Smiling in my arms for all those years
What a fool
I don't know about tomorrow
What it's like to be
I was sure
Could you let myself to go
Even though I feel
The end
What a fool
I don't know about tomorrow
What it's like to be
I was sure
Could you let myself to go
Even though I feel
The end
Full moon sways
Gently in the night of one fine day
You are there
Smiling in my arms for all those years
Gently in the night of one fine day
On my way
Looking for a moment with my dear
Full moon waves
Slowly on the surface of the lake
You are there
Smiling in my arms for all those years
What a fool
I don't know about tomorrow
What it's like to be
I was sure
Could you let myself to go
Even though I feel
The end
Oh love affair
Floating like a bird resting her wings
You are there
Smiling in my arms for all those years
What a fool
I don't know about tomorrow
What it's like to be
I was sure
Could you let myself to go
Even though I feel
The end
What a fool
I don't know about tomorrow
What it's like to be
I was sure
Could you let myself to go
Even though I feel
The end
Full moon sways
Gently in the night of one fine day
You are there
Smiling in my arms for all those years
Notes’ N ‘Words
I wanna dance like no one's watching me
I wanna love like it's the only thing I know
I wanna laugh from the bottom of my heart
I wanna sing like every single note and word it's all for you
Is this enough?
I wanna tell you and this is the only way I know
And hope one day you'll learn the words and say
That you finally see, what I see
Another song for you about your love
'cause you love the me that's full of faults
I wish you could see it from this view
'cause everything around you is a little bit brighter from your love
I wanna dance the night away with you
I wanna love because you taught me to
I wanna laugh all your tears away
I wanna sing 'cause every single note and word it's just for you
Hope it's enough?
I wanna tell you and this is the only way I know
And hope one day you'll learn the words and say
That you finally see, how I feel
Another song for you about your love
'cause you love the me that's full of faults
I wish you could see it from this view
'cause everything around you is a little bit brighter from your love
Not a day goes by that I don't think
About you and the love you've given me
I wish you could see it from this view
'cause everything around you is a little bit brighter from your love
Life is just so much better from your love.
I wanna love like it's the only thing I know
I wanna laugh from the bottom of my heart
I wanna sing like every single note and word it's all for you
Is this enough?
I wanna tell you and this is the only way I know
And hope one day you'll learn the words and say
That you finally see, what I see
Another song for you about your love
'cause you love the me that's full of faults
I wish you could see it from this view
'cause everything around you is a little bit brighter from your love
I wanna dance the night away with you
I wanna love because you taught me to
I wanna laugh all your tears away
I wanna sing 'cause every single note and word it's just for you
Hope it's enough?
I wanna tell you and this is the only way I know
And hope one day you'll learn the words and say
That you finally see, how I feel
Another song for you about your love
'cause you love the me that's full of faults
I wish you could see it from this view
'cause everything around you is a little bit brighter from your love
Not a day goes by that I don't think
About you and the love you've given me
I wish you could see it from this view
'cause everything around you is a little bit brighter from your love
Life is just so much better from your love.
“Thank you for tonight. This 3 songs means a lot to me. It actually describe my life and someone important. ” Jurina smiled and left the stage. I could hear the crowd kept shouting for encall. But in the end….. she left it empty. “If only these songs could reach you.” Words appeared on the screen. Unconsciously, tears fall along my cheek. I cried.
Why.
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Jurina Pov
“Where Is she?” I felt furious for not knowing where is Rena.
“C-calm down Jurina.” Yuki said as she trying to calm me.
“Mayu. Care to give me an explanation?”
“Jurina. She is at New york.” Mayu said as I was surprised. Why is she doing there?
“Why is she doing there Alone?”
“Calm down!” Mayu raised her voice as she can’t take it any more.
“All because of you dummy. You are the cause of it!” Yuki glared at me.
Yabai, I could feel black aura from her. “Okay, Okay I’ll calm down. But please explain to me.”
After they explained the whole thing to me. I don’t know how to react. Deep down in me I was happy, but a part of me thinking and hoping that she doesn’t felt pity on me.
What should I do now? Go back to New york or stay till she come back?
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